Wednesday, April 6, 2016

Writing: 1

I thought that writing was a one-time activity.  You take your pen and scribble those words on paper or type them into your laptop. Looks very natural process. But my PhD writing experience dismantled that feeling.

Writing is not a natural process when you do it for a purpose: You need to master the time and space of your writing sense. It requires you to discipline your old habits of procastination, and keep deadlines in mind. YOU JUST CANNOT WAIT FOR THE RIGHT MOMENT TO START WRITING LIKE YOU WAIT FOR YOUR LOVE (only in some cases). One of my professors told me 'You write write write.....write.....that's how you learn how to write.'

How did I write in the earlier phases of my academic life?

I thought I am a natural writer, and kept on writing many poems and stories. It was when I was a child. Things did not change when I grew older. Sometime, I got inspired by some movies where the protaginist gets struck by love and write a poem that define the movie itself. I used to re-enact the role of the protagonist in the belief that I would satisfy someone's imagination and I would be writer someday. The aim was to get 'recognised'. However, it was not the best thing to do although I got some initial success. I irritated one of my professors with my silly writings and poems. Finally, he said one thing aloud: 'Every writer has hisown voice. You should find yours'.

It was a big blow to me and I stopped writing for a long time. 

Tuesday, April 5, 2016

Sing along

Don't they remind you of your love?
Don't they lead you to nostalgia?
Don't they make you reflect on your qualitites?
Don't they calm your nerves to work or walk?
Don't they make you miss your mom?
Don't they bring back the taste of your town?
Don't they gauge your sensitivity?
Don't they help you smell the context of your past favourite moments?
Don't they guide you through difficult times?
Dont't they let you to party?
Don't they make you forget the deep wounds?
Don't they let you think and write?
Don't they share your attributes?
Don't they tempt your feelings?
Don't they inspire your becoming?
Don't they make you hopeful?

And

Don't they make you superhuman?
Don't they change you?

Songs have that cpacity to take you to far and wide, and
To go beyond borders and checkpoints without any permission.
They are what you are and the best comfort you have.

Monday, April 4, 2016

Writing !!!!!!

Ultimately, what does it do?
Should I go back to wilderness
And search for my lost touch?
Or, is it the premature decision that landed me in trouble?

Wait.

I don't know it yet.

I must see whether I can finish this thing off first.
I need to prove me wrong, by being myown foe.

How do I fall in love again?
With words?
With reading?
and above all with myself?

Keep writing....

Someone said: 'you keep doing it to find out the happiness of writing'

Yes! Let me see what and how I can write something that make sense at least to myself.